Artist: Smoke City
Album: Flying Away
Tracklist :
- Underwater Love
- Devil Mood
- With You
- Numbers
- Mr. Gorgeous (and Miss Curvaceous)
- Aguas de Marco (Joga Bossa)
- Dark Walk
- Jamie Pan
- Giulietta
- Flying Away
I DID WRONG... WHAT SHOULD I DO?
When I met a beautiful man online 8 months ago we immediately hit it off then went on a date. However, on like 6/22/08 I requested friendship with one of his female friends but then she messaged me and I messaged her back. We didn't curse or any of that but I guess she felt the last one upset her so she notified him. That morning at breakfast at a restaurant I notice a different look on his face by how he looked at me. I knew that I did something wrong but I didn't know if she/ he had talked. I was so nervous sitting with him knowing I got a message in que to his friend. I kind of brushed it off so after dropping him off he got out the car without kissing me like he always do. By then I rushed home to try deleting the message but it was too late.
Later that night at my sis's house (his friend called her bc they're talking too) & she relayed the message that I wanted to see him. But he was like, “MAN... blah blah is furious at your sister!” She had this look on her face like dam girl you messed up. So come to find out (she's his promoter) who basically has a major influence on his career. He/ I didn't talk for bout a week. I cried so bad cuz I knew that we may never see each other again. He/ her tried convincing him to find it in his heart to forgive me, they both tried working with him (but he wasn't bulging). I guess it had to take time for the smoke settle as he needed time away from me. Days later (though I shouldn't have bothered him) I immediately sent ONLY him a sincere apology letter apologizing to both adding my real name in the closure (to let him know that I really care for him and was so sorry).
Every day I think of him and his pics only triggers thoughts of the incident that I'm reminded of. After it happened I noticed a change in his actions that (he must really still be bothered) bc he don't message me on his own anymore. I send him messages and he'll reply to a few. I take the blame for being curious to know if something was going on with them after seeing numerous pics they took together, I guess they're just friends/ business partners. On July 1st my new queen bed had just arrived I'm crying so later that night my sis called me and said, “He just sent this text... “This is... text me ya sista's number.” (I was so happy). Moments later he called me. I went to pick him up then we came back to my place where he stayed the night and we ended up having sex (breaking into my new bed). ;) We've had sex ever since then. I've traveled to see him perform live (he's been so happy to see me), he has approached/ greeted me first, we've had conversations, took pics together etc. at the events. He's always smiling at me... (I mean every time I'm in the large crowd he'll spot me and once his eyes are locked on me we're super-glued to each other). When I'm in his presence his face LIGHTS UP!! (My sis was like dang girl he is so nervous).
When we're together we don't bring up or talk bout the incident bc I'm afraid of 'reminding' him of it.
His friend told her/I that he really likes me, he's been asking about me and said, “Man, I'm gone f**k around and fall for “Whypcreme.” In a convo w his friend/ I he even admitted telling me how much his friend likes me. But I don't know what to do. I really love him and although we're intimate I feel like he has a wall of security up towards me (to I guess 'try' me again). I don't know if he's slowly coming back (he haven't accepted the apology) but I told him that I'll never hut him again. When he comes here to the city he always spend the night with me, calls, cuddle in bed w me after sex (he used to didn't do this). I hope he felt my greatest sympathy bc he/ his friend are WONDERFUL. I've learned my lesson.
I DON'T WANT TO LOSE MY FRIEND, WHAT SHOULD I DO? RE-APOLOGIZE (in person)? I have my moments where I cry (although this happened 6 mos. ago bc of what I may have lost with him (he wanted to take me out again etc). Any advice? Thanks?
Emily, bitch f*ck yo sick ass, don't read my shit, it ain't no MF sob ass story so how get yo shit rite. Don't come the f*ck here tryin to disrespect me OKAY?? I'm not w yo shit or anyone elses. SO WHAT IF WE MET ONLINE, I'M 30 MF YRS OLD N HE'S 38, I KNOW HOW TO HOLD MINE DOWN. U BETTA RECOGNIZE!! DON'T WORRY BOUT WHAT I DO, WHAT I PUT OUT IN THE COMMUNITY IS MY BUSINESS SO WHATEVER IT IS THAT I WANT TO PUT OUT IS ON ME FOR DOIN SO!!
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