Artist: Middle Of The Road
Album: 50 Grootste Hits: Apres Ski (3CD)
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I raised a baby for someone who wasn't fit, is it normal that i...(read inside)?
++I asked this under newborn and baby but I'm not sure if thats where I should have so Im asking here too.
My cousin had a baby a few years ago with a man from El Salvador. He was illegal and ended up drinking and driving so he was in prison for the baby's first two years. He got deported and drank and drove again, but had a wreck and passed away. That's not the point but here goes. My cousin lived right down the road from me. She is extremely bipolar. Sometimes she just seemed flat out psycho and not responsible enough for a baby. I was always there for Jesus, her son. He cried when I left. I mean, I was the one to wake up in the middle of the night to take care of him because if she did she would just get frustrated and spank him. I changed his diapers, gave him baths, fed him, everything. There were times she spanked him with a fly swatter or drug him by the hair. He even called ME mom for the longest. He's 4 now and shes on medicine so she's doing alot better but I still get SOO frustrated when she tells people she's a good mom and hasn't ever needed help with him. Am i weird for feeling like this? I mean, I did basically raise him, if I had to walk home for anything, he was right there on my hip going with me. She didn't care, she wrote to her husband in prison and smoked cigarettes all day. Anyways, Im rambling again.
Do you see my point? If you were me would you be frustrated too? Am I just over reacting?
Not to mention he has the same birthday as me. He's 4 now and I'm 17. So I was 13 while this was taking place. She was 27
Also, I don't underestimate her at all as a mom, if she would actually step up and do it. I'm not saying she's not a good mom, I just think that she's not the best mom out there. They moved three counties away so I can't see him as often as I'd like, everytime I do he runs up to me and gives me a HUGE hug and yells KIMBER!! =] it always makes me cry seeing him, I kinda feel like I gave him up for adoption or something haha. I always talk to him on the phone, he tells me he loves me and stuff but I still wish I could do more, I guess I've done all I can, now its her turn to be a mom.
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